The new shades of hope

I saw the birds flying high when I peeked from my blanket in the bus...
the sky was clear, the wind touched me gently ..
the journey of a new change in me had begun...
the shackles of sadness I wanted to break...
the happiness and smile I wanted to embrace...
sitting near the Thames, I saw a newer dream for me..
which was a little world of mine filled with only smiles..
where worries had no entry door and my happiness had no exit...
I realized life was beautiful and something had touched me profoundly.......
Life seems a treasure now....I want to unveil the cache of my dreams..
I want to fly high and touch the sky..
I want to chase the birds and I want to reach the pinnacle...
My dreams are big, but life is small, so I want to go and go and go on....
I want to run miles and miles and miles......
this year began with  a bliss, I want to go on and on ...

Life without them...deadening painting!

The greenery going parallel with the walkway seemed like an uninterrupted line drawn on a sheet. It almost followed me throughout the park wherever I walked, wherever I looked.  The weather even being draggy did not affect my spirit. Birds have never allured me much, it was always the wildlife that invited my intense love.
But today when I strained my eyes with Binoculars, it somehow seemed, these birds are vivid, their flight relates a lot with our own emotions. And their behavior and diversity forces one to think about how these creations are actually created, each being carved with a special feature, with a new color and of course a newer beauty.
On each step I took, there was something to discover, be it the little snails..the eggs of frogs..the ants all busy in their work.. the peacock family sitting high on the branch of tree..with the young ones all aligned like an assembly in school..or be it the butterflies playing hide and seek.  Throughout the journey, there was a voice which echoed and its frequency kept increasing, as we entered more inside. It was the roar of tigers and lions, which added fuel to my pursuit. Observing a large number of birds, and finally moving further though felt tiring initially, but somehow I felt a drip of glucose going in me, when I entered the Tiger Rescue Area. The sight of black stripes and the movement of tigers and lions was something that increased my pace. Reaching close to them, and watching their actions made me realize the intense pain and torture these creatures must have gone through being in Circuses and other places employing them for entertainment.
It was indeed a great step in the direction of Animal welfare to rescue them, but it aches when we see their condition.  Man could never realize that the wilderness was also a creation. And now when we are faced with the fear of its extinction, everybody is talking about their protection. They were there with us since we came to into existence, but the human race failed to understand their importance. The pace of development makes us proud, but how many times do we feel good saving a specie, educating people about their existence. The animal lovers are of course exceptions to this statement.
Everyday, we hear of murders and deaths, claiming the headlines of newspapers and TV channels, how many times we have expressed grief for the death of a wild animal..? I believe the answer lies straight with us. Here comes the difference, the compassion and love are not just words to be blabbed whenever we think of animals, they must be rooted deep inside our hearts. The state of tigers today at Nahargarh Rescue Centre forced my brain to ponder upon how life changes after extortion..? Today they have lost that strength, the ability to adapt well like their peers in jungles because they were made to live and perform in a different environment for the most part of their life. Now, even after being free, they seemed helpless, and in a war with their own self and of course the Human Race which has become their greatest enemy. Still, we have a relief, not to worry much, as they are all caged, weak and struggling for their own life, what bad can they do for us..? I believe the answer to this thought would be a deadening painting of mother earth wailing incessantly for existence and the decimation of wilderness completely one day...

They shed tears..they cant speak to express their happiness and grief..but they simply look with a hope of attention and love.. they add beauty..they add excitement...but still we don't claim them ours..and still they continue to do their job..asking nothing materialistic..but just our love and care...they are the Beautiful Animals..go ahead...and fondle them..they need you..!!!!

Something calls me....

I tried moving alone, I tried being alone, and I tried being strong....
but sooner I realized I cant...
the moment I take a step..something beckons me...
the moment I feel sad...there is something that makes me smile...
and when a tear trickles down, there runs a smile...

Life has been a coalesce of the most beautiful moments and blues...
but struggling I can feel someone near...
today moving ahead..and  you being away..
I can feel that whiff..I can feel that presence...

the lanes remind me of the funk...
the food talks about all the things we ate together....
the books tell me a story..of you and me together..
you being away..seem so near...

I wish the best for you...
and seeing you happy...my heart rejoices...
but still I miss something...having the best...I still feel incomplete...
I feel tired being so pragmatic..

but all I can do is nothing...
I wonder I could fly high..to reach heaven...
to talk with god...to rehash the destiny...
just to make you all mine...

there is something which still glints bright..
something that is always with me...
something that calls me...

I wonder what is it..they are MEMORIES.... living within me...

I MISS YOU....

Love.

easel of my life...

the cold air surrounds me...hitting me hard inside...
I miss him... my life has veered towards a new destination..

I cannot stop moving, but I cannot even stop missing you...
the people would change, the winds would be new..but my eyes would always search for you...

I know you cannot come with me...but my arms still wait to clasp you...
I smile, but it fades soon...

sometimes I sit on the shore of our memories...thinking if you could come back...i could make you all mine...but all i have are some moments captured by my eyes..they flash before me often..they sometimes bring a smile and sometimes they bring tears....

My soul sings each moment to make you feel how much I love you... the dreams still gleam on the waves...i watch them coming near and going away...i wish i could sail and bring you back...

i wish the days could come back...and I could paint a new picture of you and me..with the most beautiful shades..but all i don't have is YOU....!!

Love.

rain, nature and me!

The sky came right above me...

I see the streaks shining and glowing deep in the ridges of sky painted blue and black,

the curves of clouds jutting in and out....

the wings of birds spread flat in air, flying higher, touching the edges of the black rust sprayed raggedly in sky...

I sit with my arms open...

my body feeling the weight of each breath I take...

and I waggle each stem of the grassroot and shrubs...

I lie down to feel the moist soil beneath me....

the air blows my hair away.... and the little grasshoppers are on their way....

I see the leaves swagging down... but full of life.. and the beads of drops on their tips...

glinting with the brightest spark...

sheet of dew drops is all over the earth...

My heart knocks.. my eyes are still...
I try holding myself... I walk in the furrow.. watching the white mushrooms growing with the creepers lying around....
Happiness now is not a pipedream for me...
I feel it unfathomed here in the hayfields... here in the woods.. and here with the lovely snails making their way out from the soil...
and here griming my clothes with the wet soil and the grungy puddles...
The thunder strucks .. the sound tinctures a fear... and in moments I see the rain drops floping down...

It touches me gently.... infuses the Smile which I have never felt so refreshing, so reposeful and for the first time so dam real and true....

Rains engender me into a new world.. beyond my dreams.. beyond the wordly fancies..

Its the world of rain, nature and me...!!!

twiner of my thoughts...!!

Cradle is the darkness..... baby is the moon,  toys are the stars and I the spectator..
the deepest of all, the abode of calmness, the most splendid "MOON in the starlit sky"!  the shades of serenity.. the easel of love and the rays of smiles are less to describe your charisma..!
my moments of smiles and tears are all confined in you.. with you I talk for hours.. you are special.. you are dear.. I wish I could keep you always near! Luminescence of you has covered the sky.. the planets and stars are out for a walk.. its time for you to shine.. shine in the best way.. shine with all the glory.. and shine with all the beauty..! melting away my pains, you are a mirror of my feelings. The kaleidoscope of yours drives me into dreams, even in midst of glumes, you smile and smile.. even being away for miles and miles!!
Looking at you I feel you love me so much.. more than anyone who claims to be near.. !
The sky each night makes the black carpet.. and there comes you.. walking white.. walking bright and the most glinting.. u look fab. words cannot describe the beauty... you are beyond the reality... and the most bewitching dream casting a spell on me....!!!
cant stop myself from making a ladder to reach near you... tieing it tight with the twiner of my thoughts!!

snippets of DREAM.. the most beguiling...!!!

The bushes and leaves.. I move away...

taking my boat further, I make a way........
into the deepest of seas... and the chilly breeze....
Its me and you rowing the world away....!



the fear and terror vanished somewhere....
and the strength and love have become the gears......
cache of talks I wana share...
just me and you rowing the world away...!



the words you speak are a symphony to me....
and with your eyes I see the loveliest dream.....
the lonesome ocean sings the song for me....
"be forever and ever just with me"



I can feel the tempest wrenching me away from you....
I quickly row my boat as fast I can...
you hold me tight and smile....
together we row the world away....!



the shore seems near...
the redolence of you has drenched me with happiness....
together we sail through the lazuline sea...!



the hand I grapple so tight....
u hold me in your arms.. and I see you shimmer....
I close my eyes to feel the whiff of you...!



Walking together I feel the sand chafing through my feet...
skylarking I put some on yours... and then I see the footprints going so parallel.. going so together....
I kiss the sand... I kiss the shells.... I wana kiss the sky....
the most beautiful I could ever feel...!



I take a sigh...
away a mile I see a castle...
gleaming with all the shine and spark...
the most vivid I could ever see...



peeking at you.. I see you smile...
the castle of sand as bright as dew....
I feel each my dream coming true....



I press my head against your heart...
Locking my arms into yours....
a slew of  smiles pelting down from above...
dousing us in the rain of love....
just me and you rowing the world away.....!!!




INSPIRED FROM: a dream I saw after watching twilight...!